Obsessing over LAP

(Similar to post on WMD.)

I found out today that my current crappy HMO is actually good for something - they'll pay 100% of the LAP for endo, as long as it's coded for pain of course. We're planning on switching to a PPO at the end of the year, but I doubt the PPO will pay 100% so might as well take advantage.

I guess it's time to call the GYN again, I haven't been there in MONTHS. I'm just worried that I'll get denied the surgery because I've already been in for IF. And because my doctor and I talked about endo, and I told him my cramps weren't TOO terrible. The consensus on WMD seems to be that I just call and say my cramps have gotten much worse since then, think that will work? :)

I know, I'm obsessing. I'm nervous about not being entirely truthful (although there have been months when the pain has been HORRIBLE). And yes, I'm also VERY nervous about having surgery!! You ladies that had it, how bad was it? How much time did you need to recover? Is there a particular time of the month they do it?

I'm a little verklempt!

Now, I love my mother. But as supportive and wonderful as she has been throughout our TTC journey, I know she can't relate. She is one of the lucky uber fertile who managed to get pregnant every time she thought, "I'd like to have a baby."

I know I've mentioned that I would like to be able to talk to my aunt about IF. (It took her 10 years to get pg. Oh, and she's also my godmother.) I don't see her very often and we don't have a close relationship. So imagine my reaction when I see that she has posted a comment on my FB status from last night. She didn't say anything sublime, but just the acknowledgement that she understood was enough to get me teary.

I needed that this morning :)

Took an HPT

Very unlike me, but I just wanted to get it over with since AF is taking her sweet time, and I happened to have an HPT lying around. Negative of course, if you hadn't guessed.

I was also curious because it's starting to feel like that really weird period I had a few months ago. Just wanted to make sure it wasn't, ya know, something bad.

Anyway, I sorta announced it on FB. And by "sorta" I mean, in so many words. I suppose that was a little impulsive, but what can it hurt, right? Just about everyone already knows we're trying and failing at babymaking anyway.

I'm feeling a little better (emotionally, at least) than I was earlier. Maybe the hormones are settling down. Now I can concentrate on which glasses go best with my new 'do :)