I think I'm skipping 10 on Tuesday today. I'm just not feeling it.
I had a great weekend with the exception of having to work on Saturday. My home life has been pretty fantastic lately. I think after almost 4 years of marriage Hubs and I are finally starting to understand each other and express ourselves better. We're fighting less, we are more patient with each other, and we're more giving of ourselves. I like this.
If only my work life was so wonderful. I've been going nonstop for about 4 months straight now, and although the sudden tearful outbursts in my cubicle have subsided, I know I'm still stretched too thin. What really sucks is between all the extracurricular activities I have going on and generally not wanting to sit in front of a computer after I get home, I haven't been looking for a new job. I still get a couple of emails a day with job alerts, but I haven't applied for anything in weeks. There's really not much out there anyway, which makes it even more frustrating - knowing the one thing I could do to help myself right now probably won't help.
I guess I'm back to feeling STUCK. I don't know what to do. I think about a career change and taking a certification program of some kind, but what? And how do I afford that? And where do I find time to do that in addition to everything else? I don't have any answers.
Then there's the safety net option of trying to take a stress leave. Though I know that would be the nail in the coffin for me at work. Not that I want to stay here, but it means I'd have to find a new job while I was on leave because no one would respect me at work after I came back. They might even find a way to fire me. These thoughts freak me out at first glance, but when I imagine them actually happening the truth is I don't really care. It would almost be a relief. As long as I don't quit or get fired for cause I could take unemployment and Hubs and I would find a way to make it work.
My thoughts on the matter change daily based on my mood and state of mind, and today I'm leaning towards stress leave. It wouldn't hurt to just ask my doctor her thoughts, right? I think I'm going to call and make an appointment today. At least that would be something that could potentially help me out of this mess.
3.29.2011
3.23.2011
Drumroll, please...
I'm here to satisfy your anxious anticipation for the results of last week's poll:
Yes, I realize you can see the results for yourself any time you feel like clicking on the "view results" link, but you can't get my priceless commentary and in-depth analysis on the subject unless you keep reading. So keep reading!
First off, there were a total of 30 votes. To answer your question, no, I didn't vote. Why? Because if you'll recall, I couldn't decide what I thought and I wanted your input in order to make an educated decision... about my own opinion... Anyway, yeah, so 30 votes. That seems like a lot considering I only average about 5 comments per post. Who are you mystery people voting but not commenting? (I kid, I kid. Read, comment, vote, do what you will. I'm just glad you stopped by!)
The results:
3 People (or 10% of voters) answered YES.
20 People (or 66% of voters, also known as an overwhelming majority) answered NO.
6 People (or 20% of voters) are as indecisive as I am and answered MAYBE.
1 Lonely person (3%) asked if I would REPEAT THE QUESTION.
Here's a pie chart for you visual learners (sorry for the fuzziness, I'm working in MS Paint here):
Let's break it down now, shall we?
To the YESes: I applaud you for your conviction, though I hope you're wrong. Which I guess makes me one of those hellbound folks, because if I felt sure of my heaven-bounded-ness I suppose I wouldn't fear the apocalypse.
To the NOs: I tend to side with you on this one and not just because you're the majority. I'm also siding with you because I'm afraid the YESes might be right, but I don't want to admit it.
To the MAYBEs: What kind of answer is that?? Do you secretly agree that recent natural disasters could be a sign of the apocalypse, but are too afraid to say so? I'm guessing that's what it is. And I don't blame you one bit. If that's the case, my pie chart should look more like this:
Unfortunately for the YESes, the NOs are still in the lead by a long shot.
And to whoever voted I repeat the question - bless you. If I had a prize to hand out, you'd get it. I always think I'm hilarious but it's nice to know someone else appreciates my humor too. Unless you really wanted me to repeat the question, in which case, please see the hot pink bit up above. Too bad voting's closed now so yours won't be counted.
So my OFFICIAL opinion on whether or not these natural disasters should cause me to fear the apocalypse...
I'm going to go with option D: "Can you repeat the question?"
A cop out? Maybe. Sure. Probably. But if the apocalypse is coming, it's coming regardless of whether or not I think it is. So I might as well spread a little humor around while I can. And if I can't spread it around, well at least I made myself smile!
Oh, and since I'm sure you want the OFFICIAL official pie chart, here you go:
"Do you think recent natural disasters may be a sign of the impending apocalypse?"
Yes, I realize you can see the results for yourself any time you feel like clicking on the "view results" link, but you can't get my priceless commentary and in-depth analysis on the subject unless you keep reading. So keep reading!
First off, there were a total of 30 votes. To answer your question, no, I didn't vote. Why? Because if you'll recall, I couldn't decide what I thought and I wanted your input in order to make an educated decision... about my own opinion... Anyway, yeah, so 30 votes. That seems like a lot considering I only average about 5 comments per post. Who are you mystery people voting but not commenting? (I kid, I kid. Read, comment, vote, do what you will. I'm just glad you stopped by!)
The results:
3 People (or 10% of voters) answered YES.
20 People (or 66% of voters, also known as an overwhelming majority) answered NO.
6 People (or 20% of voters) are as indecisive as I am and answered MAYBE.
1 Lonely person (3%) asked if I would REPEAT THE QUESTION.
Here's a pie chart for you visual learners (sorry for the fuzziness, I'm working in MS Paint here):
Let's break it down now, shall we?
To the YESes: I applaud you for your conviction, though I hope you're wrong. Which I guess makes me one of those hellbound folks, because if I felt sure of my heaven-bounded-ness I suppose I wouldn't fear the apocalypse.
To the NOs: I tend to side with you on this one and not just because you're the majority. I'm also siding with you because I'm afraid the YESes might be right, but I don't want to admit it.
To the MAYBEs: What kind of answer is that?? Do you secretly agree that recent natural disasters could be a sign of the apocalypse, but are too afraid to say so? I'm guessing that's what it is. And I don't blame you one bit. If that's the case, my pie chart should look more like this:
Unfortunately for the YESes, the NOs are still in the lead by a long shot.
And to whoever voted I repeat the question - bless you. If I had a prize to hand out, you'd get it. I always think I'm hilarious but it's nice to know someone else appreciates my humor too. Unless you really wanted me to repeat the question, in which case, please see the hot pink bit up above. Too bad voting's closed now so yours won't be counted.
So my OFFICIAL opinion on whether or not these natural disasters should cause me to fear the apocalypse...
I'm going to go with option D: "Can you repeat the question?"
A cop out? Maybe. Sure. Probably. But if the apocalypse is coming, it's coming regardless of whether or not I think it is. So I might as well spread a little humor around while I can. And if I can't spread it around, well at least I made myself smile!
Oh, and since I'm sure you want the OFFICIAL official pie chart, here you go:
3.22.2011
10 on Tuesday
1. On my day off last Friday I took a friend up on his offer to show me around his start-up company. We've been talking about the potential for me to work there when they start opening up positions for several departments in the coming months. The company is only 8 months old and still unstable, but at least they're making money; that's huge in this economy. So if all goes to plan, I may very well be out of the bank in just a couple of months!
2. I went with a metallic blue instead of the usual reds and purples for my pedi on Friday and I'm loving it! It's so refreshing. Nail polish is a cheap thrill for me. Whenever I need a pick-me-up I head over to the drug store and buy a new color. And now I know what my next nail polish purchase will be!
3. Hubs and I went out with some friends on Friday night and discovered that we're old and boring. Sigh... I guess we've been cooped up in the house for too long because we've both lost the gift of gab around our friends. Overall we had a good time and stayed out way past our bedtime, so at least we know we're not total geriatrics yet.
4. Our raised veggie garden is sooo close to being done! We couldn't finish it this weekend because of the rain, but we have the space for it all cleared out and the holes for the posts dug. Now all we need to do is pick up a truckload of soil and get planting. We should be able to finish it this weekend.
5. Saturday night I went to a yoga and meditation class with my friend A (of Consider Bliss fame). It was definitely outside of both our comfort zones, but it ended up being a really positive experience. Let me see if I can freak you out a little with the details: We started off with Kundalini yoga, which is apparently different from "regular" yoga in that it's much faster and there's more sweating involved. There was some chanting and singing, and the meditation portion centered around an "Earth Gong bath". The gong was really cool actually, it went on throughout the meditation and the sound seemed to fill every inch of the room. I don't know if it cleansed me like it was supposed to, but I liked it. I'd do it again sometime for sure. Only I'd bring my own blanket next time because the "house" blankets smelled like feet.
6. After the class, A gave me a copy of the Spring 2011 issue of Bitch magazine. I'd never read it before, but there was a short article about IF blogs (immediately preceded by a longer article about mommy blogs, but that's neither here nor there) that I found somewhat interesting. Check it out if you come across it.
7. I need to gush for just a minute about what an awesome time Hubs and I had together on our rainy Sunday. I mean it was pouring and windy and just awful outside, so we were stuck indoors for most of the day. To entertain ourselves we dragged a bunch of blankets out to the living room, made some popcorn, opened a bottle (or two) of wine, and hung out on the floor watching movies and talking (and... other stuff) for hours. I guess there's really not much to tell, but it was such a good time. Totally a Top Ten kinda day.
8. Actually, the whole weekend just pretty much rocked. If only every weekend was like that! Only problem was dragging myself out of bed and tothe seventh circle of hell work on Monday morning.
9. I'm excited about my group's next meeting, which is this Thursday, because the topic is Goals. I have so many goals for myself right now, but the main one - finding a new job - is really frustrating me. Not only because of the job search itself, but because I have no idea what I want to do. I think about going back to school, getting some kind of certificate (like today I found out a dental hygienist makes as much in three days per week as I do slaving away full time at the bank!), but I don't want to commit to a program that I'm not 100% sure I'll be interested in. So what do I do? I'm hoping I'll get some inspiration on Thursday night.
10. Oh - I got out of the baby shower this weekend easily enough - I have to work! Seriously, I was hoping I'd have a better excuse than that. Or at least a funner excuse. ;) Oh well, it could be worse; I could be working and going to a baby shower!
2. I went with a metallic blue instead of the usual reds and purples for my pedi on Friday and I'm loving it! It's so refreshing. Nail polish is a cheap thrill for me. Whenever I need a pick-me-up I head over to the drug store and buy a new color. And now I know what my next nail polish purchase will be!
3. Hubs and I went out with some friends on Friday night and discovered that we're old and boring. Sigh... I guess we've been cooped up in the house for too long because we've both lost the gift of gab around our friends. Overall we had a good time and stayed out way past our bedtime, so at least we know we're not total geriatrics yet.
4. Our raised veggie garden is sooo close to being done! We couldn't finish it this weekend because of the rain, but we have the space for it all cleared out and the holes for the posts dug. Now all we need to do is pick up a truckload of soil and get planting. We should be able to finish it this weekend.
5. Saturday night I went to a yoga and meditation class with my friend A (of Consider Bliss fame). It was definitely outside of both our comfort zones, but it ended up being a really positive experience. Let me see if I can freak you out a little with the details: We started off with Kundalini yoga, which is apparently different from "regular" yoga in that it's much faster and there's more sweating involved. There was some chanting and singing, and the meditation portion centered around an "Earth Gong bath". The gong was really cool actually, it went on throughout the meditation and the sound seemed to fill every inch of the room. I don't know if it cleansed me like it was supposed to, but I liked it. I'd do it again sometime for sure. Only I'd bring my own blanket next time because the "house" blankets smelled like feet.
6. After the class, A gave me a copy of the Spring 2011 issue of Bitch magazine. I'd never read it before, but there was a short article about IF blogs (immediately preceded by a longer article about mommy blogs, but that's neither here nor there) that I found somewhat interesting. Check it out if you come across it.
7. I need to gush for just a minute about what an awesome time Hubs and I had together on our rainy Sunday. I mean it was pouring and windy and just awful outside, so we were stuck indoors for most of the day. To entertain ourselves we dragged a bunch of blankets out to the living room, made some popcorn, opened a bottle (or two) of wine, and hung out on the floor watching movies and talking (and... other stuff) for hours. I guess there's really not much to tell, but it was such a good time. Totally a Top Ten kinda day.
8. Actually, the whole weekend just pretty much rocked. If only every weekend was like that! Only problem was dragging myself out of bed and to
9. I'm excited about my group's next meeting, which is this Thursday, because the topic is Goals. I have so many goals for myself right now, but the main one - finding a new job - is really frustrating me. Not only because of the job search itself, but because I have no idea what I want to do. I think about going back to school, getting some kind of certificate (like today I found out a dental hygienist makes as much in three days per week as I do slaving away full time at the bank!), but I don't want to commit to a program that I'm not 100% sure I'll be interested in. So what do I do? I'm hoping I'll get some inspiration on Thursday night.
10. Oh - I got out of the baby shower this weekend easily enough - I have to work! Seriously, I was hoping I'd have a better excuse than that. Or at least a funner excuse. ;) Oh well, it could be worse; I could be working and going to a baby shower!
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