Just a few things

There is nothing like going back to regular ol' morning sickness after enjoying a particularly brutal bout of food poisoning.  Mmm.  It was either the frozen chicken stir-fry I made on Monday for dinner, or the cheesy curly fries I had during bowling directly after dinner.  Well, that or eating said cheesy curly fries with grody house bowling ball fingers.  Whatever it was, it came out with a vengeance early Tuesday morning and didn't stop until that night.  I was so nauseous all day I couldn't even nap, and ingested nothing but sips of ginger ale and a few saltines later in the day.  Yesterday my stomach was back to about 90% normal, but I was so freaking tired I stayed in bed until 1:00 p.m.  Today I feel like me again.  Well, pregnant me anyway, what with the background of mild nausea and underlying tiredness. For which I am even more grateful than usual!

Other than the barfing, life is pretty boring these days.  I really enjoy working at my part time job, but I'm a little frustrated because I don't have a set schedule there, and I never know for sure when I'm working until the last minute.  The owners aren't in the office at regular hours either, plus they're night people and don't usually go in until sometime in the afternoon on the days they do go in, then they stay late.  So I'm thinking a general lack of schedule is normal for them.  But for me, it causes stress.  I like to be able to plan my week; as little as I have to do, I still need some structure!  Plus I like to be home around the time Hubs gets home (like 7:00 p.m.), which really limits my hours working in the office when I don't go in until around 2:00 or later.  I'm planning on asking them today if they'd mind me having a key so I can go in a little earlier and have more time to get stuff done.  Then hopefully we can work out a schedule that works for everyone.  Particularly me. 

As for the pregnancy, I'm still adjusting.  Even though I saw the heartbeat last week it still feels very abstract.  I have a hard time thinking of the little nugget as a baby, although I do have these occasional images flash through my mind - like the second bedroom as a functional nursery, or the feeling of a baby's cheek against mine.  Those are nice.  I don't know if I'm in denial about the whole thing or if I just got so used to imagining a childfree life that it's hard to switch gears.  I'm sure I will switch gears eventually though, as long as things keep going smoothly.  

Better

My anxiety has subsided in the past few days.  Every day that I don't spot I feel a tad more comfortable.  And I think it helps that I've been staying busy. 

I started working at my new part-time gig this week, which has been fun.  I'm doing office work for a DJ/Lighting/Photo Booth company, and I also host photo booths at events (usually weddings) when they need me.  Tonight is going to be my first time hosting one all by my lonesome and I'm a tad nervous!  I'm going to have to talk to people - like lots of people - in an entertaining type of fashion.  Not that I have to sing and dance or tell jokes of course, but I will have to be "on" and help ensure everyone has a great (and smooth) time using the booth.  This is not my forte.  But I'll figure it out and try to have fun with it.

I also took a job at a catering event the other day; my first time working for a caterer.  It was a good experience despite being utterly exhausted by the end of the evening.  And I didn't even actually serve food, I stood next to a cheese station for a few hours and mostly people-watched.  But I was there for 7 hours, on my feet the whole time, and I'm not used to such exertion!  The owner of the catering company liked me and said she'd love to work with me again, so that was nice.  Anything that helps pay the bills!

I figure this experience can only help me as I continue working to build my event coordinating business.  Now I have a much better idea what it's like on the catering and entertainment ends of events.  Plus I'm making connections with other vendors, and I actually enjoy working again!  The difference between working at a bank or other heartless corporation and working with small business owners is like night and day.  These people not only love what they do, have fun with it and are generally super friendly, but they appreciate the people who work for and with them, and treat each other nicely!  I could get used to this :)

Real live human baby

I was so nervous before the ultrasound appointment this morning.  And honestly, I am still nervous!!!  Spoiler alert, it was good.  And it feels very surreal!

So the u/s tech did the abdominal scan first, and could actually see the heartbeat flicker, but it wasn't very clear.  She said she didn't think I was eight weeks, but not to worry (I'm 8 weeks 3 days past my last period), so of course I immediately started worrying more.  We moved on to the dildo cam, and lo and behold she was wrong.  The little bugger is measuring right about 8 weeks 4 days, and the heartbeat is nice and strong at 171.  She said it looks nice and secure in there, and everything looks good.  I don't see the doctor again until Monday, so that's all I got for now.

Now I have this fear that I'm going to start spotting again, like the wand might have irritated some stuff down there or something.  But I'm trying to remind myself that ultrasounds do not cause miscarriages!

Whew.  I should probably feel/sound more excited, right?  I'm just still so nervous!

I'm finally starting my part time job this afternoon, so that should help me keep my mind off of being anxious, hopefully.  I'm doing some office work for a DJ and event lighting company.  Then tomorrow I have a catering gig, basically just hosting some buffet stations, nothing too strenuous.  At least I'll have a little extra money coming in this week, god knows we're gonna need it!