What I need to do, and maybe this is why I'm here right now typing this - because I think it will help, is somehow take a step back from the anxiety that has been getting to me the past few days. At first it was kind of generalized, waking up stressed and worried and proceeding to feel tense throughout the day, and then I started to put my finger on what's going on in my head. There are a lot of things, and nothing really new: Money, family tension, the holidays, work... It isn't always easy not having the benefit of a good ol' prescription medication to keep the stress at bay, but up until the past week or so I've been doing pretty good. Now I wish I could just pop a Xanax and make the butterflies fade away for a few hours! I have tried a glass of wine since I've been pregnant but it doesn't agree with me; the booze makes my body feel weird and achy and uncomfortable. No idea what that's about and I'm not going to ask my doctor since she made it clear from day one that she's against any amount of drinking during pregnancy. Damn teetotaler.
So I'm on my own to try to handle this anxious feeling. I'm not looking forward to dinner with my family tomorrow, what with the drama with my dad. Hopefully I'm making a mountain out of a molehill, he's simmered down a bit, and tomorrow will be perfectly pleasant. I will hope for that.
The good news is that Hubs has the next two days off, so we almost get a long weekend together, except that he has to work Saturday. I can live with that. It's always a pain when either of us has to work the day after Thanksgiving, which has been pretty much every year since we've been married. Seriously, Black Friday should be a Federal holiday just so people have a chance to digest and come out of their turkey hangovers. But no one ever asks me for my opinion on the matter! Maybe I should start a petition or write my congressman or something.
Oh! I just noticed the lovely sunset. The sky is blue and pink and yellowish and wispy with clouds. And Atticus is whining to be fed, so I guess this is as good a place to stop as any. Happy Thanksgiving, all. I think I'll focus on gratitude for the rest of the evening instead of on my worries. Look at that, I think I just found my solution. :)