Some updates and stuff

Ahhh... it's been three weeks since my last acupuncture appointment and I got to go today. I needed it. I was feeling so... Eeyore this morning, and anxious on top of that, but I feel a lot more mellow now. I actually fell asleep for a few minutes during my treatment, so I guess I was pretty relaxed. My doc gave me a round of moxabustion and some herbs to help wrap up this whole miscarriage business, since I've been bleeding for about 10 days now with no sign of stopping. I hope it works, my lady business is sensitive and needs a break.

I went to the gyn for my follow-up on Friday and things are apparently going as expected. I have to get my blood drawn again this week to make sure my HCG levels are going back to normal and I also have another date with the love wand this Friday. The gyn said not to TTC for at least 2-3 months, and I sort of shrugged at him. He got it and just said well, when I get pregnant again (that's right, when) to just call and they'll get me in for an u/s right away. I do like my doctor, even if I hate going to his office. My acu said to take this month off for sure, but since I've been doing Chinese medicine for a while now my body will recover quicker than it would otherwise, so we can start TTC again after my next period. So I guess we'll mostly try to 'avoid' this month (or 6-8 weeks as the case may be), if I ever stop bleeding that is.

I had a pretty nice weekend. Saturday was my friend T's bachelorette party, we went go-kart racing and then had drinks afterwards. I also finally bought shoes for both weddings; I've been so out of it lately I completely forgot I needed to get those! Sunday hubs and I went to the air show with a couple friends and that was fun. Afterwards we indulged in a little more retail therapy. Both of our wardrobes are in serious need of updating, so now we each have a few more things to work with. I don't know about you but sometimes I literally get depressed over how sad my clothing options are!

This week is going to be a crazy one between follow-up tests, wedding preparations, my FIL's birthday tomorrow, and on top of it all my grandmother is in the hospital with heart problems. Please keep her in your prayers, she's getting up there in age so I really hope this is not "it." :(

I don't think I ever fully expressed how grateful I am to everyone not only for your wonderful comments over the past couple weeks, but for those of you who posted about me on your blogs (I know there were several of you and I'm sorry I didn't thank each of you individually) to rally even more support, sharing my blog on LFCA, and to those of you who came to show support for someone you didn't even know. I am truly touched, and just wanted to make sure you know how appreciative I am to all of you. Thank you :)

Still in the same place

I was a good girl and called the doctor back yesterday, and we were able to talk on my way home from work. I gave him the lowdown on my testing and told him how Dr. R (my acu) recommended ovarian reserve testing and a new SA for hubby. Dr. K (RE) didn't really think OR testing was necessary, since my CD3 b/w last year was normal. He was very nice and answered all my questions, but it pretty much came down to this: We've done all the testing, the odds of getting knocked up on our own are not good, and at some point or other it's time to move on to treatments.

I don't know why I'm so resistant to the idea of getting treatments. My dad has offered several times to help us out with the costs, which is incredibly generous and beyond sweet of him, but still I drag my feet. Maybe I'm too lost in the fantasy of getting pregnant on our own, maybe I don't have any hope that treatments will actually work, maybe I'm afraid that I'll ask my parents for the money and they won't be able to cover all of it so we'll still have to come up with a big bag of cash, or maybe I'm afraid that they'll change their minds because they're Catholic and the Catholic church doesn't approve of ART. I suspect it's all of that and more.

At this point I'm leaning towards giving acu and C+B another couple of months before going to the RE. That will give me time to both think things through and talk to my parents. Besides, I can't make a decision today. It's CD26 (12 or 13 DPO) and my brain is fried. Did I mention I'm going crazy as this 2ww draws to a close?? I wish I could just test and put myself out of my misery already, but I know even if I got a negative I'd still go nuts until AF arrives.

It is going to be a looooong day...

Acupuncture & Easter

I've been dragging my feet on this whole acupuncture business. As of this weekend I still hadn't called the 4th place back to get their prices, which means I hadn't picked an acupuncturist, much less made that first appointment. What is my problem? I honestly don't know.

Saturday I had a little meltdown (possibly fueled by my lunchtime margarita consumption). I was convinced that this C would be another bust, even though there's no way I could know that yet, it was only CD21. Then I didn't think hubs was being sympathetic enough, so I told him we should just stop trying. I was being a baby. But hubs was great. He sat down and talked me through our TTC options, even going so far as to ask if I wanted to just go to an RE and put it all on a credit card. In the end, he told me he really wanted me to go to the place that we refer to as the "fancy" acupuncturist - the one right by my work that specializes in fertility (in fact, I'm not sure they even treat anything else). The acupuncturist there is a doctor, whereas most only have their master's degrees; his assistant was really nice and helpful when I spoke with her too. Both hubs and I had a really good feeling about this place from the beginning, so we decided that would be it. No more procrastinating. I called this morning and got an appointment for next Tuesday at lunch. Please keep your fingers crossed :)

Our Easter was pretty good. We went to church in the morning, followed by brunch at the in-laws' house. That was fun, hubs and I got to hide eggs for our two little nieces (ages 4 and 19 months) for the first time. It was adorable! Afterwards we took a breather at home, then headed to my parents' for dinner and more kiddie fun with my brother's 20 month old daughter. She was in rare form, all bouncy and talkative, so that was fun too. I ate waaaaay too much and was about comatose by the time we got home, but it was worth it! The food was so good!

And here we are back at Monday. And could this day BE anymore Monday?? (You see that? I'm channeling Chandler Bing.) It's dark and rainy and dreary, and I have absolutely zero motivation to work on my soul-draining reports. But, work on them I must. So I'm off! Here's hoping for a quick and painless start to this week!

Gyno update

And I'm back!

Well, there's bad news and there's semi-not-so-bad news.

Bad news first: I've already had all the tests done, including the 7DPO b/w. I kind of had a feeling that I had... Dang my shoddy memory! As for the post-coital, Dr. G said it's basically been proven useless except in extreme cases, such as if you've had cone biopsies where the CM has been effected. So, not gonna happen.

Sigh... And I was so excited about having 50% coverage for diagnosis! I guess it's a good thing though, considering all my tests were 100% covered by my old insurance.

Dr. G started yammering on about how this is only my second C since the lap, and when I told him I'm not getting any younger he actually rolled his eyes at me! Punk. I like the guy, but he pisses me off sometimes too. ;) He said to keep using the OPKs and give it a few more months to see if the lap did the trick. Well I told him there's been a cycle or two (and I think this might be one of them) where I never did see a positive OPK, and that my EWCM has been MIA a few times as well... Which leads me to...

The semi-not-so-bad news: He gave me a prescription for Clomid. 50mg, CD5-9. No, it's not going to be monitored, and Dr. G wasn't too concerned about that when I asked. I'm a little nervous about it, but I'm also a little desperate. If not for the fact that I haven't seen a truly positive OPK this C (and another recent C too) - and that the lines are now getting lighter, and that I still haven't seen any EWCM - I would seriously consider not taking it. But I think I'm going to go for it. I know there are risks to using it unmonitored - multiples, thin lining, cysts, etc., but I'm thinking - it's only 1 C. Hubs is going out of town at the end of the month, which will be around O time next C, so I probably won't even use it until the C after next.

Feel free to verbally abuse me for my irresponsibility. (Just kidding, please don't abuse me, verbally or otherwise. I'm sensitive!)

I do have this nagging feeling I should get the b/w redone... But I also wonder if the reason I haven't seen a positive OPK lately is because I've been taking them later in the day, almost 8:00, when before I always took them at 5:00. They did get darker and darker this C, very nearly as dark as the control line the other day, so I'm wondering if I may have just missed it? Plus the tests I'm using now are the SUPER cheap ones, and I've even had some complete duds in the batch. Still doesn't explain the lack of EWCM, but I don't feel inside, I just wipe and check. There's been no problem with lubrication...

Ugh. Do you sometimes feel like you just know WAY TOO MUCH about all this stuff??? I kind of miss being ignorant.

Okay this is getting ridiculous and I actually do have some work to do before heading home. So I shall wish you all a good day and a wonderful weekend!

Tangent day

Hubs and I have been speculating for a few days about some friends of ours who got married not quite a year ago. It's been common knowledge in our circle that they've been "not preventing" for the past few months, and a few vague comments on their FB page have led me to conclude that they've succeeded in what they've barely attempted to do. Granted, I don't know for sure if that's the case, but I'm a pessimist, rememeber? (I even use this mug every single day at work, lest I forget.) So I always assume the worst. Well, the worst for me. If it's true it's great news for them of course.

My reaction was predictable, something along the lines of telling hubs in a particularly acidic tone, "UGH. I'm pretty sure she's pregnant," followed by IRL frowny faces a la :( and >:( But what was surprising was hubs's reaction. He said, "Well if they are, I'll be pissed, but..." And I don't remember what he said after the "but," because I was totally caught off guard by hearing he'd be pissed, and I may have stopped listening at that point. So I asked why. I mean, I know why I would be, but his normal response is to say he's happy for his friends. He's generous like that. This time his answer was pretty much exactly the same as what my answer would have been had the question been asked of me - he wants one, it's not fair, etc. etc. And I was all like, "Welcome to the Dark Side, my young apprentice..."

And then we drank our White Russians (since bowling night was cancelled), watched some TV, attempted to make a baby of our own and went to bed.

Which brings us to today: I'm deciding not to worry about others and focus on the task at hand. Today is gyno day! I really hope my doctor has some options for me for more testing. Thank you for all your suggestions, I'm going to push for the 7DPO b/w and the post coital. Although honestly I may have already had the 7DPO testing and I just can't remember... (That's not unusual for me. I once suffered through an entire summer semester of American History at community college so I could transfer to a State school from the private school I had previously attended. It was the single worst class I've ever taken. And I didn't realize until the day before the final that I ALREADY TOOK AMERICAN HISTORY! So I stopped stressing, ditched the final, and graduated with not a blemish on my academic record 2 years later.) Anyway, back to the point! I'm also going to ask whyyy I seem to suddenly have a lack of EWCM when I never had problems with that before. This body of mine needs to get it together already!

Alrighty. Gotta do some work before I leave for the doc. Have a wonderful Friday!

Breathing a bit easier

Thank you to those who commented yesterday, and for your prayers! They are very much appreciated. And they must have helped because I'm feeling somewhat better today.

On the verge of a meltdown at work (and me without my Xanax), I finally decided to do something about it last night. I called the employee assistance line and got a referral to see a shrink. While the news I learned this weekend helped spur that decision, I'm sure I could handle it a lot better if I wasn't also dealing with all this other baggage as well, ya know? I think I've been doing pretty well on my own, but there's no harm in a little emotional tune-up now and then. Ugh. Why does life have to be so dang HARD?

Anyway, onward.

I'm feeling pretty good about TTC lately. It helps that I have a couple coals in the fire - First off I have an appt with the gyno on Friday to talk about more testing. Does anyone have any suggestions for questions to ask? I've had CD3 bw, pelvic u/s, HSG and lap. Is there any other type of diagnostic bloodwork you've done or heard about? What other kinds of tests are there for IF?

Second, I am finally getting my butt in gear on the whole acupuncture thing. I found out the closest covered provider is an hour from home, and although she was very nice when I spoke with her on the phone, I'm waiting on my GP to see if they can find a contracted provider closer by before I commit. Might as well try since I'm already halfway through this C anyway.

Other than that, today's CD14 and I'm just waiting to O. Come on little eggies, let's get a nice, big ripe one going! Get out there and meet yourself some swimmers, hook up with a particularly healthy one and get to conceiving! Pretty please...?

Testing...testing...1, 2...

Oh thank HEAVEN it is finally Friday. I'm soooo ready for the weekend! Not that I have anything planned, of course, I just don't want to work!

Today I scheduled an appointment with my gyno to talk about (and hopefully order) more IF testing. I hadn't really been in any hurry to get the ball rolling, but then hubs did our taxes last night and unfortunately didn't get the results we'd hoped for. So we decided we want our little tax deduction ASAP!! ;) I couldn't get in until Feb 5th, which will be CD17, so I'm not sure I'll be able to get any testing done this C, but at least I'll be ready for the next.

Other than that, nothing new to report. I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

Fare thee well, long weekend...

Another busy three-day weekend has come and gone, and now I'm approaching the "long haul" - the three months between Presidents Day and Memorial Day where there are no paid holidays. Just one more three-day weekend to go before the drought and I dread it every year. I know I'm lucky to work in an industry that still pays for holidays, but when you have a job you really dislike, those holidays are some of the only things that get you through!

This weekend was a full one; hubs and I only spent one afternoon on the couch (heavenly!) and the rest of the time we were going, going, going. We had dinner out twice, breakfast out twice, a photo shoot with my SIL (for which I proudly sported a donut-shaped doggie chew toy on my head), saw Avatar in 3D on Imax, went to church, did the grocery shopping and even made time for love. And still it doesn't seem like 3 days was long enough!

I also started the 100 Pushups, 200 Squats, and 200 Situps programs on Sunday. I'm excited; BIL has been doing them for a few weeks now and is already showing a noticeable difference, and hubs started his last week so I thought, why not? All I've done so far are the initial tests where you see how many of each you can do in a row to determine what level you're at. The real work starts today. I have a feeling it's going to be brutal, but worth it if I can stick to it! If you're my friend on FB, feel free to hold me accountable. My progress will be tracked on there and I should be doing it every other day (or 3 days a week, I think).

I almost forgot - My doctor's appointment on Saturday was a success, although my NP wants me to get an X-ray for my neck before I go back to the chiro. Oy. But she is going to give me the referral to see the acupuncturist! I just have to call the provider to find out how to best word it so that it goes through without a hitch. She said any IF tests can be done through the gyno, and that there's even an NP there that specializes in infertility! Nice! My only concern is the cost, we still have to pay 50% and I don't know what kind of testing they'll do or how much it will run. I imagine they'll start with some more blood tests, any idea how much those are? Does it depend on what they're testing for? AF is due any day so maybe I'll just call when she shows up and ask my questions then.

Speaking of AF, yes, today is CD28. I am guessing my least favorite aunt will be here tomorrow, uninvited and unwanted as usual. It's depressing me a little, but there's nothing I can do to stop her, so I might as well keep on trucking and hope for better luck next time.

Happy NOT MONDAY!

Blessing in disguise?

This morning I found out that my new insurance requires a referral to see my chiropractor, whom I've been going to for a year. Great. I've been putting off going for WEEKS until today when my tweaked neck evolved into back and chest pain too. And now I can't go until I see my GP - yes, I actually have to go in for an office visit to get the referral. LAMENESS abounds.

I did manage to get an appt with my GP on Saturday morning, thank goodness. But normally I could call my chiro in the morning and stop in for my adjustment on my way home from work the same day. Instead I get to be in pain for who knows how much longer. Sigh...

BUT!! There is a silver lining - I'm going to take advantage of the visit with my GP to get a referral for acupuncture too. Hah! Take that, insurance!

Updated to add: (On a totally unrelated note) This morning I ignored Atticus ENTIRELY, kept my eyes closed, and was as still as humanly possible, and he went away and didn't come back until the alarm went off!! Ahh... sweet sleepy bliss...

Sounds promising...

I've mentioned a few times that I'm interested in trying acupuncture for IF, but I've never actually gone because it's expensive and we just don't have the extra cash right now.

Well, today I checked out my new insurance benefits and found out that acupuncture is COVERED. I have to have a referral from my primary doctor and it has to be determined to be "medically necessary" though. I'm not sure what that means for me. I know my doctor will give me a referral if I ask for it, but how can acupuncture ever really be "medically necessary"? And what actually counts as medically necessary?

I guess I will just have to go to the doctor and ask her my questions. At least I have a little hope that I can try it.

Post-Op

I just got back from my post op appointment and let me first say, I get that doctor's offices are busy at the end of the year, but I'm PMSed okay? And waiting for 35 minutes in the waiting room, followed by 25 minutes in the exam room for less than 5 minutes with the doctor is LAME.

Okay, rant over :)

So my doc says I had stage 2 endo (which to me sounds slightly more serious than "superficial" endo, but whatever). It was on my left ovary, pelvic wall and the side of my uterus. He said he "flushed" my tubes and they were perfectly clear, and everything else looked great. My best window of opportunity is the first 6-8 months, so as of the end of AF (the end of next week sometime), let the wild rumpus start!

On the slow train

Well today is looking like it's going to be my last day on the couch. Possibly. Maybe. Here's the skinny: My abdomen is still extremely swollen and uncomfortable. It's a bit better than it was the first few days - where the skin was stretched SO tightly over my gut that I couldn't lie down flat on my back - but it's still really uncomfortable. My goal was to be able to get completely dressed today, but there's no way I'll be able to get my jeans buttoned over this belly! Also, I'm flippin' exhausted. I got up slowly at 10:30, took a shower and got dressed, and by the time I was done I had to sit down immediately. My hair is still wet and it's 11:30. I'm still a bit sore too, but I haven't taken any pain pills today. The doctor gave me percocet for the pain and some insane amount of ibuprofen for the swelling; I think I'll take the ibuprofen today and see how I do without the percocet. Lord knows I won't be able to take it at work, I'd be so looped out and completely useless!

So I need to decide today whether I'm going to work tomorrow because they won't let me come back without a doctor's note, and I'll have to call the doc today to get it. I think I'll try to move around as much as possible today and see how I feel towards the end of the day. I feel like such a sissy! I really thought I'd be back to normal by now. Ugh.

Quickie

Lap is all done, hooray! We got home around 1:00 or 2:00 I think, I was pretty loopy so who knows! I remember waking up and being in pain, the nurse came in like 3 times to up my meds. But today I don't feel too bad. Just lying in bed watching movies and letting hubs wait on me :)

So the doctor told hubs and my mom that I had superficial endo, which he zapped out. Hmm... I hope that's what's causing my IF, but it doesn't seem likely, does it? I have my post-op in 2 weeks so I'll as the doc then.

Okay I'm heading back to bed. Today is movie day, I'm just finishing up Two Weeks Notice, not sure what's next yet, maybe something Christmassy.

Thanks for all the well-wishes and prayers everyone, you ladies are the best!

I'm bored

And boring. Therefore, this post will most likely be boring too. Sorry about that.

It's CD27. Although I don't have my usual pre-AF cramps and moodiness (yet), I do feel pretty pre-menstrual. I have that heavy uterus feeling, like AF is comin' 'round the mountain. Boo. I must admit that I was secretly (okay, more like overtly) hoping that this C would be THE C, and that I wouldn't have to get my LAP done in 2 weeks. I still have a glimmer of hope, but I'm not holding my breath by any means. And surprisingly, I'm not that down about it. Probably because it's Thanksgiving and I have other things on my mind. Of course, ask me how I'm feeling once AF makes her appearance and I'll be singing a whole different tune.

My neck is still bugging me, although it's a lot better than it has been. I think I'll be making another trip to the chiro soon. He did say he would be there all this week except Thursday, so that's nice. And I FINALLY made an appointment to get my blood drawn for my dang Celiac test! I only got the orders for it like 2 weeks ago... but well, it has been a little crazy at work with everything that's happened, so don't get on my case, okay?? :)

Oh good gravy, it's after 2:00 and I haven't gone to lunch yet. See, I told you it's been crazy around work! I hope everyone is having a lovely Tuesday!

Always be prepared

Today is the first day of the rest of this month. That's right, it's CD7 and therefore the beginning of the BD extravaganza. This is the last chance we'll have to TTC before the end of the year and we've gotta go all out! Let's see if I have all my provisions:

1. OPKs - check
2. Massage oil candle - check
3. Horny husband - check check
4. Positive attitude - ...working on it

I have my annual tomorrow - wee! That's always a fun time. I went to get my blood drawn today and discovered that when your form says, "Call your doctor to find out if you must fast," it actually means you should call your doctor to find out if you need to fast. Oopsies! Oh well, guess I'll just have to do it another day.

Other than that, nothing to report. Just trying to make it through the last 45 minutes of the workday. Hump day is almost over! (Oh! But not quite, bow-chicka-bow-wow!)

Wasn't counting on the melancholia

Three more days until AF is due.

I'm not really hopeful about this C. I'm not being pessimistic or negative about it, I just don't expect it to be the one. Like, at all. Of course, I pretty much never expect any given cycle to be the one. I don't know why that doesn't stop me from scrutinizing every twinge, ache, and swollen body part though.

Okay, maybe I am being a little pessimistic...

Confession: For the past few months during the 2WW I catch myself staring at my reflection in the mirror right before I get in the shower, looking for some kind of sign. Then I get disgusted with myself and think, "That's ridiculous. Kitty doesn't get pregnant." (Don't ask why I refer to myself in the third person when I think that.) I'm a pessimist by nature. I learned at a young age that if I don't get my hopes up too high I can't be too let down. And on the flip side, I can be pleasantly surprised if things do happen to go my way. For some reason, though, it's much harder when it comes to TTC to convince myself that each cycle is another flop. Maybe that's a good thing; it might suck worse to be a total pessimist than to have a little hope from time to time.

At this point, I'm just awaiting the lap. I feel like I've put all my eggs into the endo basket, and if it turns out I don't have it I'll probably be disappointed to continue floundering around in the "unexplained" category. I just want to find out what's wrong, and get it fixed. Why is that so difficult? Oh yeah, because I'm pretty much trying to figure it out all on my own. My doctors are nice when I see them, but since I can't afford to see an RE I don't have anyone leading me through my options. Hubs and I still have some time to figure out what to do insurance-wise though, so maybe that will change. We definitely can't afford the plan that covers IUI, but there are one or two that cover diagnosis, which is better than nothing, as long as the price is right.

Well, this was a pretty depressing post for a Friday, sorry about that! I didn't intend it to be so dismal; I didn't even realize this was weighing on me until I started typing.

So quick change of subject: Plans for the weekend! I've got to make my Halloween costume - some kind of zombie pinup/short-dress-wearing slut (not too slutty though). We're going to a party tomorrow night and we decided to go cheap and make our costumes this year. No idea yet what hubs is going to be, so if you have any suggestions, by all means share! Here's to a great weekend, everyone :)

Falling apart

Not emotionally, just physically.

My neck's still a little sore so I'm going back to the chiro tonight. I'm so, so happy I started seeing him. I was tweaking my neck pretty badly every few months for a couple years, worse and worse each time. It finally occurred to me that the problem may have stemmed from a fall I took snowboarding a few years ago. I ended up cartwheeling down the hill and jacking my neck up pretty badly. I always thought that chiropractors messed you up even more by somehow perpetuating the problem, since everyone I know that saw one kept having to go back all the time. So I never went until the pain became unbearable. I now realize that my neck will probably always give me trouble, but at least now I can go to the chiro and feel better within a few days, rather than spend weeks in pain.

Another thing - I think I'm suddenly lactose intolerant! I'd been taking acidophilus pills for months because of all those infections I was getting, and since the infections went away I stopped taking it about a month ago. Now I'm starting to notice stomach problems whenever I have cereal or ice cream. Lame!! Hubs is the lactose intolerant one, not me! Ugh. I'm thinking this problem didn't just now pop up, it's probably been building for several months, but the acidophilus was helping digest all the dairy. Hubs has been taking it for his lactose intolerance for a couple months now and it's worked wonders. Guess I'll be going back on it!

I read that a deficiency of lactase (the enzyme the small intestine produces to break down lactose) can be caused by celiac disease. Double lame! I think when I see my GP in a couple weeks I'll ask her to send me for a blood test since celiac disease runs in the family and can cause infertility. I just hope it turns out to be negative because I REALLY don't want to give a certain mean person the satisfaction of being right about that. Plus, cutting gluten out of my diet would seriously suck!

I know, I know - I need to stop googling these things. I'm probably just like the rest of the adult population and simply can't handle milk anymore.

Sorry this is such a dull and disjointed post, there's not much going on right now. I'm in the countdown to AF, still waiting on insurance to approve the lap (I'll probably call the doctor next week and see where it's at), and plugging away at work. It's a thrill a minute! But at least the weekend is just around the corner. :)

Step 1: Complete

Alrighty. Done with the doctor, and he actually was very nice (remember the receptionist told me he was "exceptional"). He didn't rush me, and he figured out pretty easily that I really want the lap for infertility but told me he'd code it for pain no problem. He said he doesn't necessarily think my pain is due to endo (mostly because it hasn't been getting progressively worse), but that it's worth looking into anyway, and that he hopes it works for me. :)

The receptionist said it may take a couple weeks to get approval from the insurance company, and when they get it we can schedule the surgery. I think I there should be enough time to get it done by the end of the year, don't you? There better be!

I'm not gonna beat around the bush here, I'm totally nervous. The idea of cutting into the body, sticking stuff inside, zapping away at tissue, etc. totally grosses me out. I can't even watch the lame fake surgery scenes they show on House, so thinking about that happening to me makes me VERY uncomfortable. There's a great reason I never went into the medical field! But I've just gotta to suck it up and go for it. No being a sissy!!

Not a whole lotta

Gosh this weekend went by fast!! And is it just me, or is anyone else having a hard time believing October is more than halfway over already?

My weekend was pretty good. My neck was killing me on Saturday, even after going to the chiropractor Friday evening, and I was pretty miserable for half the day. So we mostly sat around and did minimal amounts of housework. Hubs played XBox and I played on the computer. Yep, so productive! By about 5:00 I started feeling better and a friend of mine came over for dinner and some catching up. It had been too long! Then yesterday we had brunch and watched football with some more friends. We closed out the weekend by watching an episode of PBS's "National Parks" series. Let me tell you, that's the perfect show to watch before bed. The images are gorgeous and it's very educational, but well, it's pretty dull. I almost wish there were commercials just to break it up a little.

So we're back to Monday again! Although today is a short day for me because, as you know, I'm heading to the gyno this afternoon. Wish me luck!

Hope everyone is having a nice, mellow Monday :)

Butterflies

I'm a tad nervous. Hubs works for a big bank that was taken over by another big bank last year. The actual changeover is finally about to take place after the first of the year. The positions in the "new" bank don't align very well with those in the "old" one, so hubs's job title is going to change. He'll either be placed in a position that's kind of like half a step above his current position (most likely with the same pay), or a BIG step down (with a huge pay cut), and he finds out today which it'll be. He's pretty confident he'll end up in the higher ranking position, but I'm preparing myself for the worst. I can't help it, I figure if I don't expect too much I won't be too let down. And I can get ready for trying to figure out how the heck we'll pay our bills if we're bringing home a lot less money. He goes in to find out at 11:00 so I guess I'll know soon enough.

My appt with the gyn is Monday afternoon. I can't believe how fast those few weeks went by, seems like I just made the appointment a few days ago! I'm excited that we're at least TRYING to take a step closer to that BFP, but I'm nervous too. I have all these "what ifs" floating around in my head. What if the doctor won't order the lap? What if the insurance company denies me? What if they don't find endo? What if they do? What if the surgery doesn't 'work'? Sigh. I know, I just have to take it one step at a time. Step one: Go to the gyn. I think I'd drive myself a lot less crazy if I could just make my brain shut up once in a while! :)

In happier news, the game last night was really fun!! Too bad the Dodgers lost :( But at least they kept it interesting. We had really good seats right behind home plate so I got to ogle my boyfriend Russell Martin's booty the whole time! (Just kidding, hubs! ...Kind of.) And I gotta say, playoff games are FUN! Everyone in our section would high-five each other whenever the Dodgers got a hit, we were all chatting together, there was so much more comeraderie than at a regular game. I loved it!

We don't really have big plans for this weekend. Hubs has been working every Saturday for the past several weeks but he's off tomorrow, so I'm super happy about that. We'll probably just be working on the house, hanging out with some friends, and watching football on Sunday. The weather is supposed to be gorgeous after all the rain this week, I think I'll have to plan on being outside for a while!

Hope everyone is having a great Friday :)