It's over

Still no heartbeat, the sac is breaking down and moving down in the uterus. I'm miscarrying as I type this. The doc gave me a prescription for something (can't remember the name) to speed up the process and it should be over by tomorrow.

This sucks in ways I can't even describe.

Losing hope

I'm back at home for a few minutes today because I have another u/s and doctor's appt today. Oy... Okay let me back up.

Hubs and I made the hour drive back home on Monday for my u/s appointment. I was still spotting, but it was still relatively light in flow and color so I wasn't too concerned. Until they couldn't find a heartbeat. The u/s guy (not in my doc's office) offered to send the images to my doc right away so I could talk to him that evening about it, and both he and the doc said it may have just been too early to see a hb. Everything else looked fine - sac and yolk sac in the right places. Doc told me to monitor the spotting and call if it picked up, and scheduled another u/s for next Monday. After the u/s I was a hot mess, the bleeding actually picked up right away and so did the cramps. Hubs and I went to my parents house and my mom tried to comfort me with stories of how my grandma bled and bled with all 10 of her pregnancies. It helped a little, and I've been religiously following my mom's advice to keep my feet up. This has made vacation at the beach extremely boring in addition to extremely nerve-wracking.

So over the past few days the bleeding has increased, as have the cramps. I'm on day 8 of bleeding today, and today also marks 8 weeks of pregnancy. Mostly the blood looks old and brown, sometimes blackish. Today it looks more red. I've been having to take Tylenol for the cramps. So I called the doc's office again this morning to let them know it's picking up, and they scheduled another u/s for today, followed by an appt with the doc. Hubs and I made the drive back home again and at least I got to take a HOT shower instead of the crappy somewhat warm ones I've been getting at the campgrounds. But I'm not really looking forward to this appointment. I don't have much hope of hearing a heartbeat, seeing as it's only been three days, but maybe the doc will have some answers or advice... I don't know. I am running out of hope. I've been crying for days and I'm completely on-edge.

I'm not sure I'll be able to post an update before Sunday, but I wanted to let you all know how things were going. Or not going. Anyway, gotta run to my appt now.

Still spotting

Well, the spotting is actually picking up now. There's enough to where I need a liner, and it's still brown, but darker than it was. Freaking out a bit here, and I have people coming over for a birthday shindig in about an hour and a half. Ugh. Prayers please?