Work is getting worse and worse. I heard some "unofficial" news this morning that's turning out to be just the kick in the pants I needed to start seriously looking for a new job. So tonight as I'm enjoying a HP double feature with Hubs, I'll also be updating my resume. I started working here the same month Hubs and I started TTC, and I've been miserable ever since. And more miserable with each passing year I'm here. That's just no way to live. So if I may ask, please send thoughts, prayers, hopes, whatever you've got, that I can find something where I'm happier and can still afford to pay the mortgage.
And in TTC news... ugh. It's CD10 and, not surprisingly, I am in no mood to get down to business this month. Besides that, I think my hormones have been jacked ever since my m/c. I've got a few lovely cystic zits that haven't gone away in months and flare up even bigger when I'm PMSed. Also, for the past 2 or 3 months I've been spotting after AF for days. For example, I am still spotting today. Day TEN, people! WTF. So my acu gave me some herbs that are supposed to balance out my hormones and make the spotting stop. I can only hope.
Oh - Did I tell you about the status of my ring? It was kind of on hold while I attempted to procure a stone, which I finally did last week. I ended up getting a trillion-cut blue topaz. Pretty much nothing like I was originally planning (pear-shaped ruby), but there's a reason for that. I've been seeing poppies everywhere since I decided to use that flower as a symbol for my loss (P.S. did you notice the background on my blog is poppies? I had no idea until recently). Then I happened across a gorgeous image of a bright blue poppy, which was the inspiration for the little image I made over on the right. I'm in love with just about every shade of blue, so I decided to go with a blue poppy for my symbol of remembrance rather than red. It just felt more personally meaningful. Anyway, so my friend T now has my stone and can get started making my ring!
Okay I feel much better adding that last paragraph, otherwise this post was getting seriously depressing.
Happy Hump Day, all. And happy Hanukkah to all those celebrating it :)