I can't thank you enough for your wonderful comments on Wednesday. This week has been really rough on me, and even though I know I can always count on you all for emotional support, I'm still amazed by your compassion. Thank you.
I started feeling better yesterday and today I'm in a pretty decent mood. On Tuesday night I had a big meltdown. It was ugly and awful and it carried into Wednesday, which was lots of fun to deal with at work. But I think it was necessary, like I was overflowing and these feelings just had to come out. And now my emotions are thankfully back to a more manageable level.
I've been wanting to share something with you - I decided to have a ring made to remember my lost little peanut. My good friend T makes amazing jewelry so we're working together on a design. I know many people use angels or butterflies or forget-me-nots, but those symbols didn't really appeal to me for a ring, and I couldn't think of any other symbols for loss or remembrance. So I googled. One image that kept coming up in my searches was the poppy, for Armistice Day. A red poppy traditionally symbolizes the bloodshed of WWI, but poppies in general have been used as a symbol of eternal repose as far back as ancient Greece and Egypt.
So I came up with a simple, vaguely abstract design for a semi-closed poppy as a copper embellishment on a silver band. I also want to incorporate a pear or teardrop-shaped ruby for two reasons: 1. I lost my baby in July and that's the birthstone for July (also my birthstone), and 2. It's similar in color and shape to a pomegranate seed, for infertility. I know it's probably hard to imagine how it's going to look, but it's pretty, I promise. T is excited to get started on it, so hopefully it won't be too long before I have it and can show you. I can't wait to have a tangible reminder of my peanut.
The bank is closed on Monday for Columbus Day, so I have a three-day weekend ahead of me. Tonight we're making pizza with my brother and SIL, tomorrow is T's birthday party, as well as a party for our two nieces on Hubs's side of the family. And at some point I would really like to go to that "Barren" photo exhibit I was talking about the other day too. So, busy, but not too crazy. Oh yeah, and I'm getting ready to O, so there's also that.
I hope everyone has a great weekend. :)