8.05.2010

Checking in

Here I am, back at work. It's hard answering questions like, "How was your vacation?" People get confused when you try to smile and say, "It was okay," while willing the tears not to well up in your eyes. The tears really throw them off. But short answers keep most people from asking anything more probing, so there's that.

I will say it's definitely better to be at work surrounded by people than at home alone. Luckily Monday was the only day that happened. Hubs had Tuesday off and we got out of the house for some shopping, and my friend B was off yesterday so the two of us did some more shopping. Retail therapy is a wonderful thing. Of course I don't actually feel any better, but at least I can be miserable in a brand-new sweater today (yes, it is still sweater weather here. Endless Bummer, we're calling it). And heck, today may be my Monday, but the weekend is right around the corner. Check me out, all looking at the bright side and stuff.

So yep. I'm doing okay. I'm here. I've been trying to keep from torturing myself by thinking back on sad things, and am not ready to figure out what comes next yet. So for now I'm just here. And I guess that's okay.

11 comments:

Miss Ruby said...

Being "here" is fine. I've found in times like these being in the "moment" and just concentrating on getting through each one helps each one pass more easily.

I've been thinking about you, so it's good to see you "check in".

x

Sweet Pea said...

I agree with Miss Ruby. You will have some good days and some not so good days but I am glad that you are "here".

(((HUGS)) to you my friend.

Emily said...

One day, one breath at a time... many prayers...

Megan said...

I agree with the other ladies. Staying busy certainly helps the time pass, but you also have to allow yourself to cry when you need to.

Lookingforaplussign said...

XOXOXOXOXO

Thanks for the update, Kitty. Hang on...

Misty Dawn said...

That is shocking that its cold there, with the rest of the states in melt down. I'm glad you are almost through your Monday.

elephantscanremember said...

(hugs) I've been missing you and thinking about you a lot. We are here for you.

Kate said...

Just thinking of you...

Daisy83808 (Lex) said...

Good to hear from you. ((HUGS))

^J^ said...

Glad you are here and managing okay. And, know that I;m here for ya, if you need anything.

{{{Hugs}}} and prayers!

Alex said...

Hugs to you! I found it much better when I got back to work after my miscarriage - it's better to be around people. Thinking of you!