8.16.2010

Remnants

Okay, I'm calm now. Sorry about that little breakdown on Friday, and thanks for understanding.

I had my gyn appointment this morning, and apparently the tissue that's left is in my cervix. I was a little proud of myself because when I was watching the u/s screen last week I thought it looked pretty low, but the tech didn't say anything about where it was. So yeah, it's in my cervix. The doc was actually able to get a little bit out this morning. He said it does look like it's coming out on its own, albeit slowly, and he doesn't think it will take much longer, but seeing as it's been almost three weeks already, that I have the option of a D&C. So I'm going for yet another u/s on Wednesday and if it's not a lot closer to "done" at that point, then D&C on Friday.

I'm okay with this plan. I don't particularly want to get a D&C if it's not necessary, and who knows, a few more days might be enough time for this thing to pass on its own. The work schedule is going to be crazy enough with one employee out all day Wednesday, and another whose grandfather isn't doing well, so the fewer days I'm gone the better.

The TTC part of my brain is pretty much turned off right now. Yes, I want this miscarriage to be over with and I want my body to be back to normal - but just for my own peace of mind. Not because I'm in any hurry to move on to the next cycle and get back to trying. In fact, I don't even want to think about trying. It's just too much work. Maybe subconsciously I don't mind waiting until Friday for the D&C because it means I'll have that much more time to not think about TTC and what comes next.

10 comments:

Kelly said...

I'm glad that you have a better idea about what's going on. It's just fine if that TTC part of your brain is turned off for a while! (((HUGS)))

Miss Ruby said...

Ugh I hope the tissue manages to pass itself, that way you won't have to go through a D&C.

As for turning the ttc part of your brain off - enjoy! I tell ya not having to think "ttc" for a while is just bliss - I'm sorry for the circumstances that got you to this point though.

xxx

E said...

Hugs Kitty. I hope it is all over soon and in the past. Miscarriage is a horrible thing.

Lookingforaplussign said...

this is shitty shitty!

((hugs))

Sorry, but there aren't any better words. I am thinking of you.

Misty Dawn said...

Ugh, why in the world is the m/c lingering! What a PITA!

LLnMS said...

((( hugs )))

nholdorf said...

I am thinking of you.. ((Hugs))

Jess said...

I couldn't imagine trying to think about TTC after m/c. Give yourself whatever time you need to heal. You will get through this. Thinking of you,
Jess

Steph O. said...

(((((HUGE HUGS)))))

I'm so sorry sweetie! Take however much time you need, greiving is a process, not a period of time.

Kathy said...

Just hoping that this passes on it's own so you don't have to have a d & c on top of everything else and that you get a much-needed TTC time-out. Prayers for you...