Okay, I'm calm now. Sorry about that little breakdown on Friday, and thanks for understanding.
I had my gyn appointment this morning, and apparently the tissue that's left is in my cervix. I was a little proud of myself because when I was watching the u/s screen last week I thought it looked pretty low, but the tech didn't say anything about where it was. So yeah, it's in my cervix. The doc was actually able to get a little bit out this morning. He said it does look like it's coming out on its own, albeit slowly, and he doesn't think it will take much longer, but seeing as it's been almost three weeks already, that I have the option of a D&C. So I'm going for yet another u/s on Wednesday and if it's not a lot closer to "done" at that point, then D&C on Friday.
I'm okay with this plan. I don't particularly want to get a D&C if it's not necessary, and who knows, a few more days might be enough time for this thing to pass on its own. The work schedule is going to be crazy enough with one employee out all day Wednesday, and another whose grandfather isn't doing well, so the fewer days I'm gone the better.
The TTC part of my brain is pretty much turned off right now. Yes, I want this miscarriage to be over with and I want my body to be back to normal - but just for my own peace of mind. Not because I'm in any hurry to move on to the next cycle and get back to trying. In fact, I don't even want to think about trying. It's just too much work. Maybe subconsciously I don't mind waiting until Friday for the D&C because it means I'll have that much more time to not think about TTC and what comes next.