I've been dreading today for months, and now that it's here I'm... actually okay. I called in sick and although Hubs couldn't do the same we had a few lovely hours together before he left for work. There have been some tears and I expect there will be more. I'm just going to allow myself to feel what I feel, and not force myself to feel one way or another.
To my Peanut on what might have been your birthday: You would have loved today. The sun is shining and there's not a cloud in the sky. It's warm and beautiful out and it would have been the perfect day to meet you face to face. I will always love you and miss you.