3.10.2011

What might have been

I've been dreading today for months, and now that it's here I'm... actually okay.  I called in sick and although Hubs couldn't do the same we had a few lovely hours together before he left for work.  There have been some tears and I expect there will be more.  I'm just going to allow myself to feel what I feel, and not force myself to feel one way or another.

To my Peanut on what might have been your birthday: You would have loved today. The sun is shining and there's not a cloud in the sky.  It's warm and beautiful out and it would have been the perfect day to meet you face to face.  I will always love you and miss you.

17 comments:

Sweet Pea said...

Thinking of you and sending you tons of (((((HUGS))).

Allison said...

((((Hugs))))) My thoughts are with you on this day.

the Barreness said...

Sending you hugs and strength.
It is a beautiful day to remember a beautiful what if.

Emily said...

(((hugs))) We love you!!!

Do I Have to Be a D.I.N.K.? said...

Sending you lots of HUGS today! I know this is a very hard day for you!

Alex said...

Thinking of you, your hubs and your little Peanut. And sending you a hug... It's so hard to lose the little ones that were wanted so much.

Sarah said...

My thoughts are with you, I can't imagine.

E said...

*hugs*

Misty Dawn said...

(((HUGS))) Kitty

elephantscanremember said...

(hugs)

Heather said...

Hugs. Lots of hugs. I'm glad you're doing ok. Hugs, just lots of them. :o)

Angie said...

Thinking about you, darling. Sending hugs and comforting thoughts your way.

Marianne said...

HUGS!

Kate said...

Just hugs - thinking of you as you've passed what would have been....

^J^ said...

I am so sorry you're having to go through this Kitty! Glad you took the day off...hope you were able to do something speacial!

{{{Huge HUGS}}}

Miss Ruby said...

big hugs my friend, i know all too well how hard these days can be.

sending you love from afar

~x~

Tracy said...

I'm so sorry, my dear friend