Well, despite my itchiness, we DID do the TBM on Tuesday night. It was pretty uneventful, until...
My itching got WAY WORSE. I don't know what happened, the only thing I can think is maybe the moisture irritated it more. I definitely don't have an infection (I've been vigilantly checking for any weird-looking CM), so that's good. But Tuesday night it just kept getting worse and worse. I took a Benadryl, a Xanax AND one of the hubs' sleeping pills but still didn't fall asleep until 3 a.m. So I called in sick to work (still itching TERRIBLY) and slept until 10. Yesterday was awful, so I called my old doctor, the one I went to when I first had my itch problem 3 years ago (I'd go in every week, never had an infection, but would itch like crazy) and begged them to call in my old prescription for me. I haven't been to that doctor in 2 years because they don't take my new insurance, but he took pity on me and called in my Rx without making me come in. Too bad it's such a random drug that without exception the pharmacy always has to order it, so I won't get it until today. But just the thought that relief is coming helps.
Today I'm feeling slightly better. I can walk upright and at a normal pace so that's a good sign! I think (hope, pray) we covered most of our bases this C. I would have liked to get one more round of TBM in last night, but there was no way I was trying that again with the way I was feeling. So we DTD on CD10, 12, 13, 15 and 16 (TBM). CD 16 I had lots of EWCM, so hopefully we caught O just in time, but I'm not holding my breath. Next month I'm just going to have to be a lot more careful. Load up on some PreSeed, no alcohol, and just take it easy... And what, cross my fingers?
I almost feel like I'm being taught a lesson. Like I'm supposed to just give it up because I obviously don't have any control over whether we conceive... I guess there doesn't have to be a reason behind everything that happens, but it's been so damn difficult to even try lately that it's starting to get ridiculous. First two YI's during O time, then finding out I can't see the RE until December, and now this, all within a few months. I don't know if I even believe God gives us "signs," but I have to admit it's weird after being mostly YI and itch free for 2+ years. What do you think - signs from God, or just signs that I need to relax? Either way I guess it's pretty much the same thing.