Thank you to everyone for your kind and supportive words the past few days. I very much appreciate them, and all of you! You're the best :)
I got all my frustrations out on Friday, talked to the hubs about everything, and I'm feeling much better now. The way he looked at it was we can keep trying naturally of course, and save up some money until we can change our insurance in December so we'll be prepared to pay for our part of any treatments then. In the meantime, I'm sure I could probably get one of my doctors to request a lap to check for endo (if I ever get the guts up to do it).
Also, I'm considering getting more serious about trying. Not that I haven't been "serious", but I haven't had the patience to try temping, I don't use OPK's regularly, etc. So, food for thought for the time being.
One good thing that has come out of this is that I don't feel so pressured now, somehow. Maybe because I don't feel like I have to be building up to something. I just assumed that after a year of trying the next thing to do was to see a specialist, that that's what everyone did. And there was this pressure to try to beat the clock I guess. So now I think I will just take it easy for a while, enjoy trying naturally, and really try not to put so much pressure on myself.
Easier said than done I know. But I'm in that hopeful, pre-O state of mind right now, and I'm going to take advantage for as long as possible :)
(Another post coming up regarding the weekend, this one is getting too long!)