Cheaters never prosper

Yeah, so, I should have known not to get my hopes up about all the FDing and the one (cheat) BD session we did this C. And yeah, I know we're still TAB. But that doesn't mean I can't be disappointed about AF showing up today, right? Sigh... At least she didn't tease me with spotting first this time.

We've officially been "off" TTC for 2 months now. I was hoping to start back up again this month, but until I get these infections under control the break goes on. It's just way too much pressure to have to worry about trying when there's a good chance we won't be able to BD. Not that it makes a difference - the first year of our marriage we didn't try (and we didn't NOT try, you KWIM), and that didn't work. Now we've been trying for a year and a half and that doesn't work either. I honestly don't think hubs and I can get pregnant on our own, and that we'll just be going through the motions until we can change insurance and see an RE.

And yet I still get my hopes up every month whether we're trying or not. Go figure!


Caitlin said...

Whether you are TAB or not it still hurts when AF shows. Even though we all hate hearing "just relax", I think we secretly want to be one of the women who stops trying and gets KU. I hope she at least takes it easy on ya.


Emily said...


IKWYM... even the months that we had NO chance, I still had hope. I don't know why we set ourselves up for the disappointment.

Hang in there... there is light at the end of your TAB... it will be here before you know it! In the meantime... enjoy your DH and get ready for that road trip! ;-)

M said...

It's only natural to have that little hope even when the odds are stacked against us and I think that's a good thing! (((HUGS))) I hope the infection clears up soon and you can get back into TTC soon.

Tanya said...

I think that it is very natural for all of us TTC to have the hope whether TAB or not. Even when there are months that we know it is almost impossible based on timing and all that, but we still get our hopes up. Does that ever go away, even if we decide to stop TTC?

E said...

Sorry about AF. Boo.

I KWYM about being dissapointed!

I hope your infection clears up soon. Hopefully by the end of your break you will feel like new and ready to have at it.

Anonymous said...

I agree with everyone. It sucks every time AF shows up. I think we always hold out hope.

Steph O. said...

I did the same thing every TAB month. Once we get in the TTC mentality, it's difficult to set it aside.

Crazy idea- has your DH been treated for a YI? I think that's one that couples can pass back & forth. Sorry, you're going to tell me to shut my non-MD mouth, but I just feel like there's GOT to be a solution to that!

Allison said...

TAB doesn't mean your longing goes away, that's for damn sure. I'm sorry she showed, Kitty.