On a see-saw

Oh, heavens to Murgatroyd. I am driving myself crazy, so I just thought I'd jump on the ol' blog here and share the insanity.

Ahem. So. AF is due today and she's taking her sweet time making her grand entrance. That's the first thing making me nutty. Will she or won't she, will she or won't she? Well, I'm sure she will, but until she does my mind is foolishly wandering. The hormone roller coaster isn't helping matters either.

The second thing taking up way too much real estate in my mind is the whole treatments thing. I am starting to think, more and more, that my endo is causing more problems than everyone seems to think. I don't have much faith that IUI will work, and I would hate for my parents to spend a lot of money for nothing. They've offered to help pay for adoption too, but how can I ask them to help us more than once?? I don't think I can, and I'm not sure they could/would help with both anyway. I know this is something only hubs and I can figure out, but GOD I wish we didn't have to.

Hopefully I'll feel a little more sane when AF starts (or ya know, a day afterwards). Hopefully.


elephantscanremember said...

I think we're pretty much in the same boat. (Hugs) I hate this back and forth too. (Bigger Hugs) I hope you and your husband come up with a great plan and it results in a precious little baby very soon. (BIGGEST HUGS)

Lookingforaplussign said...

It's hard to decide sometimes, especially now that your p's are chipping in. I'm not sure what I'd do it I had other people's money at stake--it is kinda a gamble either way. You should speak with them about this. If the gift is a gift outright, then you should accept it now, especially since you are still young. You don't want any regrets.

Allison said...

Ughh... I hear ya, girlie. It doesn't seem to me like IUI's are crazy-successful... but they're a lot cheaper than IVF or adoption, so I guess that's why they get so much press.

((((Hugs)))) Talk to your parents about all of this - see how 'invested' they are in helping this dream become reality. Because it's not just your dream; it's theirs, too. (((((More hugs)))))

^J^ said...

I truly hope AF stays away and you can 'spend' that money else where! I hate the see-saw feeling, but sadly I think I just got flung off.

I agree with Allison, try talking with your parents and see what they are thinking about vesting so you can try & make the best decision for you & dh. (p.s. - lucky you to have parents that are so supportive)

E said...

I agree with Allison. Talk to them about it. Lay it all out on the table and see what they say. IUI really doesn't have a high success rate, it is just that it is the first step in fertility treatments. IVF is WAY more successful...maybe if your parents are going to go all out and help, you could just either go straight to IVF or to adoption? I know that sounds extreme, but why waste time and a money source if they are going to help?

M said...

Hi Kitty!!

Lots to think about! I'm with E and Allison... talk to your parents about it.

I did 4 IUI's that all failed. That isn't to say I haven't heard numerous stories of women that had theirs work on the first try... but the stats are about 15% or so.

If you are really looking to at least try the IUI is it possible for you and hubs to save up and pay for it yourself and use your parents gift for something pricier if it comes to that? Not that you want to try take as much as you can but there is a big cost difference.

Good luck Kitty!