Yesterday I was a wreck. I now realize it was mostly due to the wine I enjoyed at our family dinner on Sunday. AF was still doing her thing, and I was trying to share my endo info with my sister and not getting the response I hoped for. I have a bad habit of drowning my sorrows and it never turns out well. Even if I don't drink enough to be hungover the next day, I almost always end up with an "emotional hangover," and yesterday I definitely had one! From now on, I'm going to make a conscious effort to not drink when I'm already depressed.
Less than two weeks until my endo appt! I am both anxious and nervous to finally take this next step. I feel like we've just been spinning our wheels for months, between all those infections and not having the insurance to pay for an RE. I even ordered OPKs online yesterday for the first time in many months. Hopefully this C we'll be able to go full steam ahead, now that AF is out of the building!
I was a major sissy and didn't use my Diva Cup this C. When I finally got up enough nerve to try it, I realized the soap that I thought was fragrance-free actually wasn't, so I couldn't clean it. Oh well, there's always next month. And now I've got the freak-out out of my system so I should be good. The chlorine-free pads were a godsend though. I had no rash or irritation at all! What a major relief.
We just got the open enrollment info for our benefits today - you know you're infertile when open enrollment gets you excited, huh? I know I don't have to explain to you though, that this means we're that much closer to (dare I say it) our baby. (Shoot, now I have to knock on wood and throw salt over my shoulder and look a black cat in the eye as it crosses my path backwards or something!) It won't go into effect until January, but please keep your fingers crossed that we find a plan that works for us.